Saturday, May 22, 2010
I'm scared y'all
I have a Master's Degree is Social Work and I currently work as a Probation Officer (juvenile). My clients (all male) are on the high end of the offenses scale so I supervise kids who commit felony charges (sex offenders, murderer, armed offenses, etc). I enjoy working with this population. I actually wanted to work as a probation officer since I was a teenager. So now that I'm here, and have been here for six years, I feel like I'm not effective.
Why am I ineffective? Because by the time one of these kids come to me, they've probably been in crisis for years. They've not been going to school regularly for months. They had been smoking marijuana for quite some time. It has been instilled in them for years that very little is expected of them and from them. So then, then get arrested and a file with their name lands on my desk and all of a sudden, I'm supposed to "fix" them. Huh???
So this has been bothering me for a while. I love working with these kids, but I feel like it's just a revolving door until they graduate into the big leagues. So I want to work with them in school. In a school setting, I'd see them more than the 30 minutes (max) a week that I spend with my clients right now.
So, it looks like I'm headed back to school. I plan to pursue my PhD in Psychology. I want to be a School Psychologist. I scared. I'm afraid of failure. I know it's going to take time. It's going to be expensive. I plan to have a baby sometime in the mix. I don't know if I can get it all done. I know lot of people are full time students, full time parents and work full time, so it's definitely possibly. I hope I can do it do. photo credit